Edges of Our Seats, Edges of the World

Posted in 1 with tags , , , , on November 20, 2008 by wayonhelp

Life is the only movie

Worth watching.

One giant cinematic vision of

Mortality.

 

We either watch it,

In folding chairs

On the edges of docks at sunset,

Or on the tops of mountains

In the same clouds as our dreams,

Or in cars speeding down

Desolate roads,

Or on the beach staring out across

The ocean,

 

Or life will watch us.

It tears into our every move

Like the judges hammer

Being swung down forcefully

As we sit in dark rooms

With only our mistakes on trial.

 

And the sentence?

Watching ourselves disappear.

 

We either watch it or it watches us.

 

Fix your focus,

And life has so much more to watch,

From our folding chairs

Always on the edge of our seats

At

The edges of the world.

Ah, The Teary Floor

Posted in 1 with tags , , , , on October 26, 2008 by wayonhelp

It’s greed to want

More than a memory.

The incense of moments

Stain

The rooms of your mind

No candle can ever be lit

Again

Without a glance to then.

 

It’s all in the memories.

 

A smile,

Dry lips when you finally

Kiss goodbye,

The words you stumbled on

And

The ones you didn’t.

 

It’s all in the memories.

 

Still,

Some burn this gold from their pasts

Down to the grounds

Of their souls.

They’re intoxicated for more

And

Force it to happen again

And again

And again.

 

Inevitably,

They just lie as remains

On the floor of

Useless, dripping

Hearts.

 

It’s all in the memories.

 

The Ship Goes Down Today

Posted in 1 with tags , , , , , on October 13, 2008 by wayonhelp

The dividing moments come

To choose or be chosen.

And I stand on the shore to

Watch the ship I made burn in the distance.

Small, ghost flames tear it apart

As if it wasn’t important enough

To garner a larger spectacle.

 

And she wasn’t really.

Not to me.

 

I never could figure out what she saw in me that was so damn

Special.

She had vast ideas of who I was.

I was going to take her places,

Apparently.

I never could see it,

Not ever,

Because it wasn’t there.

 

Time has passed and

My coastline is dotted with

Boats burning ever so slowly,

Time,

Slowly tearing away all these glowing mistakes

As

I

Sit on shore making sense

Of all this burning wreckage.

Oh Yes Mr.Time, Tonight We Dance

Posted in 1 with tags , , , , on October 5, 2008 by wayonhelp

Face to face with time.

My cold blue eyes

Right into

That steep abyss that reaches

Back into the past

And imagines

A future.

 

There was a time

Is a time

And may be a time.

 

Imagination in the woods of my youth,

Sitting over these words,

And

Tomorrow.

 

I was shaped by then,

Brought to now,

And know that one tomorrow

Will not come.

 

But, all that matters is

There is A time

and it’s right now.

It’s a candle burning over a thought.

It’s the buses aching down the street.

It’s the familiar feel

Of the rustic photos on my walls.

It’s love in a moment

And I know what to do with it.

 

I can’t go back in time and change

It’s memory

Just so I can live with myself.

I am living myself now.

Right now.

And right now.

 

How could you ask for anymore truth

Than that?

Expecting The World

Posted in 1 with tags , , , , on September 29, 2008 by wayonhelp

during our life we expect
to grow old and not fall apart.
we expect the whole system of death
to just pass us by.
one hundred percent of us expect
to marry our true love.
52% are usually wrong.
they pick a bruised version of what
they know will make them happy.
we expect to walk down and up the
stairs and never fall down.
for an 83 year old man
that’s a long time to keep such a useless streak.
we expect to have children
with no illnesses.
“not my dna.”
we expect
life without consequence,
love,
without hurt
rain
without water.

who are we to expect so many miracles?

when i walk down the road
i am a man walking down the road.
i am alive
and everything else that happens,
well,
those are the miracles.

Human Magnetism

Posted in 1 with tags , , , , on September 28, 2008 by wayonhelp

it’s because we don’t have it

all figured out.

no one can.

it has to do with driving forward blind,

wind spitting like bullets

at our faces.

that won’t kill our smiles.

and it’s part to do with

the sects of our inside worlds

as being black and white.

simple colors, simple choices.

it’s going to end

and

that we do know.

we’re magnetic.

we don’t cowher to the fire.

we search for the MEMORY

as dry logs to raise the fire higher

until it makes no sense at all.

that’s human magnetism.

that’s why youre here

right now.

A Childish Fable

Posted in 1 with tags , , , on September 26, 2008 by wayonhelp

 

Roses were not meant to be grown

In cities.

I planted one,

On the sidewalk,

And another on the roof.

 

Spring came and

They bloomed.

Tall and red,

Just one rose among the throngs

Of people coursing the street,

And another up with the birds.

 

Store owners complained

The rose was too red,

And streetwalkers had to take

Extra steps,

And certain types said the rose

Should be planted where it can be appreciated.

I thought it was perfect where it was

Crowded streets getting a glance

At one red rose growing where

Nothing had before.

 

Up high the other rose

Bellowed down to birds and bees to

Come and rest awhile.

In return for the rose’s hospitality

The seeds were spread around the city.

 

The following spring

Roses grew out of many sidewalks,

Out of dumpsters,

On the sides of buildings,

And even out of the trunks of cars.

It was documented in the news

As a “Travesty of Nature”

People shoved their noses at a

City blanketed with roses.

 

Soon,

Businessmen took extra swings with their

Briefcases,

Taxis made extra turns,

Strangers found ways to take extra steps.

 

I watched from the window of

My building.

I saw the wide eyes grow wider

When a standing rose was spotted.

It was like a massacre of beauty

All these people gnawing to

Get a chance to destroy a rose.

 

When the summer came the roses were gone.

Nothing left but a few stems and petals

Covered over with black streaks

Of oil and soot.

Walkers went back to walking

While staring at the ground.

Businessman went businesslike

Again.

Taxis went back to efficiency.

The world was as the world was.

 

Beauty really is useless.

Hearts Drip Like Rusted Oil Pans

Posted in 1 with tags , , , , , on August 26, 2008 by wayonhelp

Motions stream across the invisible the world is as the world should be. All we are is cannonballs rushing towards our next target. Bam. Smash. A roadsign, a life, a lives, a whole city, a nation, a country, the world.  One has taken over and nobody is one.  Shiver, wake, shiver, repeat.  Eat balls of dust, choke on stale air.  Scream muted screams.  Yeah, it’s all happening but who cares now? It’s gone to the shit that we shat.

  Cold turkeys, rusted forks, and a whole mess in between.  We are what we ate and what that was is an unfolded sack of moldy potatoes.  Each little root stemming out spikes the throught, the esophagus, the stomach, and eventually the bowels.  Be careful what you eat in the new wolrd.  Its shaky.  Its cold, and it’s defenseless.  We are not heroes anymore.  We are beaten down, tragic losers benevolent to the system that suppresses us.  Bow down bow down bow down.  Amidst a sea of white flags another white flag hangs.  Where did you come from?  Oh, over there, you had no chance buddy.  Eat the tasteless tofu.  What happened to the red, yellow, green, orange, pink, turquoise,  colors of the flags we waved in our youth?  Gone, gone , gone.  Shiver again, it doesn’t get better.  Yes mr.thomas, we’re raging against something, its just not the dying of the light, it’s the light of our dying.  Tragic suppressed motions move our joints now.  We speak in clustered already spoken and overused sentences.  Hearts drip like rusted oil pans.  With no woman around to sop up the life we become overmellowed, oversensitive, oversad, overused, overridden, and eventually just like the moldy potatoes we pick up from our rusted forks.  Wave the white flag buddy.  Wave, shiver, rinse, repeat.  Eventually, it’s all happened, and then, then, then, then, then, you want it all back.  You move with more agility than a toddler to find the remnants of your heart that have dripped out and fell on every crooked sidewalk and unlit alley from maine to florida.  The highway of fallen heartdrops.  you only walk it once.  It’s all you can bear.  It’s all you’ll remember, it’s everything you’ll regret.

Here’s To You Old Sport

Posted in 1 with tags , , , , on August 5, 2008 by wayonhelp

i walk on the inventions of

men

before my time.

i’d trade concrete for mud,

asphalt,

for grass,

rubber,

for sand.

I live with the conventions

of men before my time.

and i’d trade corporations

for barter,

hiearchies,

for parallel level friends,

marriage,

for mutuality.

i get fooled by the suggestions

of men

before my time,

like painting myself with lead based

paints,

it takes time

for what the other generations

have told us to do

to really tear us apart.

we would flame bright hues of change

to undo what is deemed undooable,

to fix the world so we can prosper in it,

if only you haven’t already

subdued us

with everything we need to

make no evolution

at

all.

Get Off My Foot So I Can Move Ahead

Posted in 1 with tags , , , , on August 1, 2008 by wayonhelp

as i take the unfamiliar clay

into my hands,

the first thing i notice is the way

it stains my hands

red.

Traces of it wedge between the wrinkles

of my fingers.

but it’s warm

and now not so unfamiliar.

it’s like the right song at the right time,

water to dry lips,

perfect for the moment.

It makes me laugh as crumbles

fall to the floor like

rubber balls.

They would play a melody had they

fallen on a xylophone.

It’s like anything else in the world

we cherish.

you don’t compare the feeling it gives you

to any other feeling.

it’s unique,

its a storming down the door of  dull moment’s home

and proclaiming

“not this moment my friend,

in the name of Feeling Anything,

not this moment.”

and it’s deeply personal,

it is stamped in your mind

and does not share exactness with

another (although you may believe it).

and yet…

we still tie our shoes together and try to run

fighting for the  recognition of our

own moments

brilliance.

we still shoot progress in the foot

by taking our feelings

and beating them with worded bats

into the helpless.

Let me have my clay,

let me have my songs,

let me have my moments,

ehh…..

you couldn’t have taken them

away anyhow.